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Sunday, September 21, 2008
Felser x Reita : Break up @ 10:38 PM


Title : Break up
Extras : Meh.. This is for Hueruza. Shounen-ai, my first boy-love fic. =D
Pairings : Felser x Reita (Fighter x Fighter) and slight Reili x Reita (Female fighter x Fighter)
Other Characters : None at the moment
Chapter : One
Rating : PG-13

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Snow... So pure.. But cold.. Like the world..

"It's snowing heavily..", I touched the window.. It felt cold.. Everything was cold.. But someone will keep me warm..

"I know.. Are you feeling cold?.." , The voice asked.. It was low and listless but that was what that will keep me alive and warm throughout this heavy snowstorm..

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My name is Reita Cybele. I just turned 19 recently.. I am an orphan, a child that nobody wants. I have never known my parents. I have admirers, many... But my heart only belongs to one person.. And he is Felser Hueruza...

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"Yeah, but I'm alright..", I replied and sat on the bed with Felser. He got up, went to the fireplace and throw in some firewood. He gazed at the fire.. I could tell that he was troubled.. I got up and hugged him tightly from behind.. I wanted him to know that I will always be by his side, no matter what...

"What's wrong?.." , I asked, hoping that he will tell me. He did not turn to look at me in the eye, instead, he kept his eyes on the fire.

"Nothing.", he said. That did not reassured me. I kissed his cheek, still hinting to him. He ignored me but held onto my hands. I remained silent but tried to hint him again.

"I love you..." , I tighten my grip on him, pressing against him and closed my eyes. 'Tell me, Felser... Please..', I thought. Instead, he turned away.

"Isn't it too soon?"

"Too soon what??" , I looked at him. I had no idea what he was trying to tell me. I rest my head on his back, I could feel his breathing and his heart beating quickly, I knew that he was going to hide something from me.

"Too soon to love me?..." He pushed me away and went to his desk.

"What??", I was a little taken back. "What's wrong with love someone?", I protested. I was angry, I didn't expect him to doubt my love for him..

"I mean.. We only went steady 2 weeks ago...", he mumbled. I turned away and went to my bed. He pretended to read a book, hoping to avoid any of my questions.

"Do you hate me, Felser?...", I looked at my feet, thought I did wondered why i asked such a stupid question, but I just had to know what was on his mind.

"No.", he shut the book and left the room. I begin to wonder why was he behaving like that.. Was I being a nuisance? Is he angry with me?.. What wrong did I do?.. I watched him leave, I didn't want to stop him in case he might get more angry.


During the evening, I did not have any appetite to eat, I was just lurking around in the canteen, hoping to look for Felser. Someone grabbed my arm, I turned to look, hoping it was Felser. But no, it was his annoying little sister whom he refused to acknowledge.

"Reita~", she pecked me on my cheek. Her name is Reili. She is one of those girls who harass me the moment they see me. Her so-called 'Love Rival', is Reina. Either one, they both annoyed me. I told her I was fine, can't wait to get her off my back, since she was being such a pain.

"Aww~ You seem upset~ What's wrong, darling?", she pressed herself against me. I hated it. I never like women and I don't want to be close to them either.

"Leave me alone.", I pushed her away.

"What? What's wrong with being concern for you?", she rolled her eyes.

"I am fine, are you deaf, stupid, blind or just bring plain idiotic?!", I shouted at her, loud enough for the whole cafeteria to hear me. The whole canteen was silent, I quickly turned away. Reili glared at me. I know she is going to hate me for this. For embarrassing her in front a crowd of people. I did not bother to look at her. Instead I left the canteen and hurried to my room. I opened the door and stepped in. The candles were lit, I turned to look. There was a shadow of a man, I walked closer.. It was Felser, he was seated on the bed, staring blankly at nowhere, deep in thoughts. He did not even notice me, he did not even know I was in the room. I closed and lock the door. Approached him and sat beside him. He quickly turned to look.

"Felser...", I touched his arm. He still didn't want to make any eye contact with me and kept quiet.

"Do you regret?... Are you regretting that we went steady?..", I moved closer to him, hugged him and rest my head on his shoulder. He stroked my head, it made me feel glad, but still, I remained silent. He kissed my cheek.

"That will assure your thoughts...."

I was not convinced.. I turned his face and pressed my lips unto his. He was... Shocked.. But I did not care. I held onto both of his hands. I refused to let him slip away this time. I continued to kiss him, closed my eyes. Enjoying every moment of it.. Until he broke away from me..

"That's enough..", he turned away. I felt annoyed, why is he doing this to me.. Why does he keep keeping things to himself when we are together now?..

"What?..." I said, looking at him.

"Enough.. Is enough", that's all he replied. I did not understand anything at all. 'Just what is wrong with him?', I wondered.

"I... Do not understand...", I bit my lower lip.

"I do not feel really comfortable being all cozy with you.", he rolled his eyes.

"Then you should not have agreed to go steady in the first place."

"If you want to break up, it's fine with me.. After all, there are people who want you..", he said coldly.. I was hurt, it felt as if I just stabbed myself.. I hold onto my tears..

"I don't want to..", I told him.

"Why not?.. A war is on the verge of breaking out.. Why would you want to be with me?.. Who knows if I will never return.."

I quickly grabbed his hands, I do not want to lose him.. I can't lose him..

"I love you, Felser.. That's why i want to be with you..", I tried not to make him angry..

"And what if I die?..", he glared at me.

"I won't let you die.."

"Oh? How are you going to guarantee that?", he replied in a sarcastic tone, trying to hurt me..

"You... Hate me.. That's what you are trying to say... Right?..", I swallowed a ball of saliva, hoping that he won't leave me..

"I have no love for you, Reita.", He said firmly, glaring directly into my eyes. "Go look for someone else."

That was it, I felt lost and hurt. I just didn't understand.

"But why?! I don't understand..."

He ignored me and left the room. But said something when he was at the doorstep that made me wondered if he did love me or not...

"Because I wouldn't want you to die with me if I should fall..", he said. I called out to him, but he soon disappeared among the crowd and I could no longer see him.. I spent the night in tears.. I had no idea what was going on.. I only wanted to love him.. That was all i asked for.. As i stepped into the bar...



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